I’ve finally sobered up enough to get back to blogging but my drinking is now starting to worry me because it is interfering with my blogging and my singing of karaoke this month because I was so tired that my legs were wobbly from not just drinking but from lack of sleep because I don’t get any sleep at night yet I don’t know what to do about it all but just to let it run its course because I’m not going to seek medical intervention for it and it fits my lifestyle of solitary living which is not going to change anytime soon and probably never. It’s my solitude that is the problem but since I’m old and poor finding a woman to share my life at this stage of my life is not going to happen so there you go and although I know women it’s one thing to know them and another thing to live with them and being old and poor and alone is always tough but don’t cry for me Argentina because life is a journey that ends only in one way and I’ve already lived to be an old man therefore no regrets…
Leonard Cohen just died and everybody I now around my age is dying and Charles Bukowski was an alcoholic but he was an out of control alcoholic where as I’m only an alcoholic the first two weeks of every month which is all I can afford to be and still take care of all of my bills because I’ve been homeless before not because of drinking but years ago I was determined to write no matter what and I turned out to be a starving writer and survived being a starving writer except then I was much younger…
I never want to be homeless again although I gave myself a fright yesterday because I couldn’t remember paying my rent this month which is due by the 5th of every month or there is a $50.00 fine so I went and searched the papers on my writing desk which I never use for writing and there was the copy of my rent payment which the super of the building gives to each resident.
This is not as sad of a story as it seems because as funny as it may seem this blog is taking off and it is my best hope of maintaining my sobriety and I’m getting to the point where it is actually adding to my financial well-being making me put in the work to maintain it and as of today it is averaging 1,003 views every day for this month and I do not want to lose that because this blog is the only reason why I get up in the morning unless it’s to go hang out at Armand’s in Little Italy which I did today and got to talk to two other Vietnam War veterans which always fortifies me against the slings and arrows of outrageous fortune.
So since I used up all my fun money today it’s back to work with a vengeance on the blog and hopefully I’ll be able to make up the lost ground of the last few days after I finish off the 40 ounce bottle of beer I brought back from Armand’s which I plan to sip as I read Bukowski and listen to classical music low on the radio.
This is Guy Hogan reporting for the Pittsburgh Flash Fiction Gazette. All photos of Lucy Collet were sampled from Egotastic All Stars. Lucy is what is called a full-figured model and she gets a plenty of work.